I was asked to post another poem. Sorry it’s late, I didn’t know what I wanted to post. So I’ve decided to get personal and give more of me. Recently I found the man of my dream. But I can tell he’s been hurt repeatedly. So this poem is based off his hurt…

I can take away all your hurt
I’ll forget about all the material things and put you first
I’ll be that shoulder you need to lean on when your day seems the worst
God said ask and you shall receive
I’m here to give you anything you may need
But my love, only if you let me…

I’ve looked into your eyes and yes I saw your pain
You have a wall up and scared to love again
And baby that’s a shame
On this day I promise I’ll never hurt you nor call you out your name
And deep down inside I know you feel the same
But only if you let me…

I want to lay my head on your chest to east the rhythm of your heart
Just want to make your day easier before it starts
I’m here to mend the pain that they done to you
Unknowingly, I already love you
But only if you let me…

Sweet heart, just give me your hand
Let me console you and help you stand
Let me take you far beyond your expectation
I can take you past that lusting sensation
I just need you to open your eyes so you can see
I’ll give you more than the world
But only if you let me…

A best friend & sister gone

I do apologize for this being so late. I’ve been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. So this is just me venting:

Last week I lost my best friend to bone cancer. My mother and her mother grew up together so Denise and I were like sisters. Our birthdays were only 2days apart, 27 years of celebrating birthdays together. I’m my mother’s only child but don’t know what it feels like to not have a sibling until now. I understand the whole “she will always be in my heart” saying. But I’ve never felt this empty before. Last night I forgot she was gone and called her cell just to see what she was doing. But no answer on the other end, and that’s when the reality set in. No matter what time of the day it was, if I called her she would answer and I the same. We made plans for our birthdays to go 2 Vegas, lol our parents finally let us go farther than Atlanta. I know things happen for a reason, but it’s taking me a lot longer to understand the fact that she’s gone. But yes I do have goof-ball pictures of us together that I can look at and smile. Right now it just feels like a in my heart every time I try. I took all the pictures down in my place that had her in it. I’m not sure if that’s cold heart or me trying to get over the hurt. It’s like I’m angry at God for her leaving me, but on top of that I know that God gives life. So right now I’m just trying to inhale and exhale without feeling like my lungs are tight.

Sorry for all my tears….