Tuesday, July 27, 2010

1st time telling

For the past 3 years, I’ve been battling with a tumor that UPENN the doctors just recently came to conclusion on what it might be. So, here is a little information on what I found, don't be alarmed I'm not dying lol:
Hassard and Michaels first recognized the endolymphatic sac as a possible source of neoplasm when they discovered incidentally a small vascular lobular tumor in the sac during a decompression operation. The endolymphatic sac tumor was previously called "cerebellopontine angle ceruminoma," "extradural choroid plexus papilloma," "metastatic papillary adenocarcinoma of unknown origin," and "middle ear adenoma" The association of endolymphatic sac tumors and von Hippel-Lindau (VHL) disease has been reported. Most endolymphatic sac tumors appear to occur sporadically and an association with VHL disease has been reported rarely. Mukherji, in a multicentric retrospective study of 20 VHL cases, reported only one case of this association. Many authors agree that patients with VHL disease present with greater risk of developing endolymphatic sac tumors, even bilaterally. The prevalence of the latter tumor in VHL disease was estimated to be 7% and this prevalence is much higher in VHL patients with hearing loss. On histopathologic examination, endolymphatic sac tumors show papillary adenomatous architecture, consisting of a complex interdigitating papillary process infiltrating the surrounding connective tissue and bone. The tumor contains areas of hemorrhage, hemosiderin, and cholesterol clefts with scattered inflammatory giant cell reactions. The endolymphatic sac tumor is a slow-growing tumor and may recur locally but has not, to our knowledge, been reported to metastasize. Endolymphatic sac tumors are located in the posterior area of petrous bone and frequently involve the dura; they are hypervascular locally invasive bone-destroying tumors and are frequently associated with the presence of reactive new bone. Unilateral hearing loss and vestibular dysfunction are prominent, but late, symptoms revealing the tumor. The duration of hearing loss ranges from 6 months to 18 years, I was 12 when I loss the hearing in my left ear. Some authors insist on the early diagnosis of endolymphatic sac tumors in patients with VHL disease using audiologic tests and periodic MR screening to detect early papillary endolymphatic sac tumors before the deterioration of audition. Facial nerve palsy is seen once the tumor becomes large. CT and MR findings have strengthened the theory that the endolymphatic sac is the origin of papillary adenomatous tumors of the temporal bone. Indeed, the small endolymphatic sac tumor destroys the retrolabyrinthine petrous bone in the region of the vestibular aqueduct and then spreads to the supra- and infralabyrinthinem and mastoidotympanic regions. The cochlea is always spared. On CT, the tumor bone margins are geographic or "moth-eaten," and the intratumoral bone appears reticular or spiculated. All papillary endolymphatic sac tumors had a thin peripheral rim of calcification, representing the expanded cortex of the petrous bone. Sparing of the jugular foramen helps distinguish the endolymphatic sac tumors from jugulare or jugulotympanic glomic tumors. On MR imaging, the small tumors show heterogeneous signal with a peripheral rim of increased signal intensity, and on T1-weighted images, these tumors show heterogeneous intratumoral contrast enhancement. The presence of intratumoral-scattered areas of increased signal intensity on T1-weighted images is related to the presence of breakdown products of subacute hemorrhage, cholesterol clefts, and proteinaceous cysts in the large tumor. On angiography, the tumor displays a high degree of vascularity, with blood supply from the ascending pharyngeal and stylomastoid arteries.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Free Writing...Casanova

Well I don’t have a true topic tonight. Just have a lot on my mind and decided that I’ll free write for a little hope you like it :)....

Every1 wondered what I saw in him. I guess it was the fact he could make light outta any situation that was grim. We shared intimate conversation in2 the wee hours of the night. While he comforted me to make sure everything was all right. His words soothed me like a lullaby. As the way a mother would quite a baby’s cry. He made love 2 me verbally. As he penetrated me mentally. But never once touched me physically. One time was all it took. Like a drug I was hooked. I soon became just another name in his book. There was Emily Dickinson, Elizabeth Bishop, and Maya Angelou just to name a few. As the long list of names of woman he had wooed continuously grew. He was the Casanova of words. As he enticed each one of us with adjectives, nouns, and verbs. I wondered if he whispered to them the same sweet nothing. As he filled our mind and made us like something. As we shared the same thoughts of the same man. He had us all eating out his hand. Sometimes he would disappear for days at a time. That’s how I knew that he wasn’t all mines. But as soon as I thought of him he would return and everything was fine. He took his rightful place in controlling my mind. With all these women before me. I wasn’t the only one in love with Poetry. With a kiss and a promise to see me later. There’s no doubt Poetry is a player…

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

This Saddens Me....

I know that Blogs are about having fun, but this is something that has been on my mind for a couple of days. My hometown, Atlantic City, has really gotten out of hand since the Police Chief was forced to let go of 20+ officers last month. Currently I live about 20mins away from the city but it still hits home. In the past 5 weeks, there have been 5 homicides. The part that bothers me the most is that no one is steeping up to the plate to say anything about a shooting. 5 lives, ranging from 19-30 years of age, have been lost over something stupid. No arrests have been made in either case. It’s funny how we claim we’re grown but are still worried about “tattle telling” more than we’re worried about the safety of our children’s future. In all honesty, we really need to stop and think about the future more than “right now”. “Right Now” is only going to last for right now. But our future is as stake and we should have far more concerns about what may happen to our off-spring if we don’t do something now…